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howr you doing semuanya? gila gw bener2 berasa nih blog makin terlantar aja, pengen banget sih tiap hari update cuma ga sempet gara2 ulangan mulu. muak abis ih ih ih. jadi skrg gw mau update lumayan panjang ah.

kemaren ini pas lg beres2in laci jepitan, gw nemuin kartu ujian nasional pas smp dulu. ya ampun ga berasa uda ampir 3 taon ujian nasional smp dan skrg uda mau uan sma deh. gw jadi bernostalgila sendiri. gw inget waktu itu baru lepas kawat gigi, dan ujian dengan gigi nutnutan gara2 pake kawat lepasan. gw juga ingeeeet bgt yg jagain gw ujian tu guru kerjaannya cm makan permen sama baca koran. mending ngaso di rumah lu tuh om!

ni dya kartu uan smp gw : HINA BANGET GILA uda muka kayak embak2 jualan tempe, poni kadal, item banget pula, senyum tanpa gigi saat pake kawat tuh nyiksa bgt hahaha


yang terjadi selama beberapa minggu ga post ini apa ya, oh iya bokapnya sahabat gw, Bella baru aja meninggal dunia kirakira 3minggu yang lalu. gw kaget banget loh soalnya yg gw tau emang penyakit jantung bokapnya ini uda sembuh dr bbrp taun yang lalu makanya gw kira sehat2 aja ga taunyaaaa tibatiba uda meninggal. tp dasar sahabat, biarpun gw ga perna denger kabar ttg bokapnya lagi, tp hari itu pagi2 feeling gw uda ga enak, kepengen nangis terus padahal ga ada apa2. aneh bangeeeet ga taunya emang ada apa2 sama sahabat gw. be strong babyyyy! face it through and someday you'll be proud of yourself to be a mature tough woman. i love you best!

hmm bella tuh gw kenal dr masi securut dr sd kelas 1, satu les orgen dr kecil, dan mulai deket lagi mulai smp sampe sekarang tetep stickwith biarpun uda jauh. hihi tp dy kuat banget loh, ga nangis sama sekali heran ya, gw salut banget sama dy bener2 tabah. goodgirl. bella tuh yang ini yang paling kanan :


film yg trakir gw nonton tuh hmm DECEPTION! please semua yg tertarik nonton film ini, mendingan ngga deh. ada hugh jackman sih, tp ga worth banget nonton ini. tiap hari kerjaannya cuma dapet telpon "ARE YOU FREE TONIGHT? MEET ME AT ....... HOTEL" terus mreka ketemu abis itu begituan. besokannya "ARE YOU FREE TONIGHT? MEET ME AT ........ HOTEL" terus ketemu dan begituan lagi. trus besokannya juga sama lagi "ARE YOU FREE TONIGHT? MEET ME AT ......... HOTEL " terus ketemuan dan begituan lagi lagi lagi dan lagi sama cewe beda2 tiap malem. gila bgts. cerita tentang club sex ga jelas. jangan nonton plis. rugi abis! sama ruginya nonton film2 indonesia kampungan jaman sekarang, yg slalu berbau2 ke gitu2an.

yg kayak gini nih cover filmnya : AWAS JANGAN NONTON YA!

terus hubungannya sama judul post gw apa ya? ahaha ga ada apa2 sih cuma pengen cerita aja gw uda mulai sangat ga pewe di ipa. klo pelajarannya emg dari dulu gw biasa2 aja ga demen bgt freaaaaaak abis2an gitu, tapi gw tetep ga bisa mingle sama guru2nya nih. aplagi sejak kejadian wayan itu (yg gw ga bisa cerita dsini) gw sangat tidak suka sama dy, bener2 muka dua dan gw ga peduli dy baca nih blog mgkn someday tp gw bener2 ga suka GA SUKA BANGET MALAH. mendingan dy di depan kita smua lgsg to the point deh drpd di belakang ternyata ngmgin kita yang jelek2 KEPSEK MACEM APA SIH LUUUU , sucks meeeeeeeeeeeen! gila marah2 mulu nih. hahahaha najes abis.

dan hubungannya sama judul post gw adalah gw cuma mau bilang kalo masa depan gw bukan orang lain yg atur. dan tentu aja bukan si WAYAN. gw tau kok ada bbrp temen gw yg dipaksa sama dy masuk ke universitas2 bergengsi soalnya dy pengen biar dikenal klo loren tu mampu masuk kesitu! bahhh gw bener2 have no idea kenapa ada kepsek yg model begituan. dan dy tuh ngerasa kalo ANAK IPA YANG NGGA MASUK KEDOKTERAN, NGGA MASUK ARSITEKTUR, NGGA MASUK TEKNIK, dan CUMA MASUK DESIGN adalah ANAK ANAK YANG GA WORTH DI MATA DY. itu jelas banget dari kata2 dy pas dy tau gw ambil design. bener2 underestimate bangeeeeeeeet2an. gw si sabar2 aja deh gapapa gapapa terserah.

hmm cita cita gw sebenernya pengen banget kerja di post production pictures gitu, yg bikin2 iklan / edit film / klip dan bikin2 animasi seperti itu dan pengennya sih bisa memajukan film animasi buat anak2 di indonesia. soalnya kan kurang banget tuh, kepengen deh di indo bisa bikin film2 animasi kyk carwash, the incridible, cars, etc. kalo bisa sih kerja di pixar / disney dan nunjukin wayan kalo yg masuk design ga buruk2 amat kok masa depannya. hehehe

yauda deeeeh gw mau belajar aah buat besok, lg ulum ni wish me luck ya! good luck juga buat semua, i love you all! <3

soooooo boring days

im sitting here at my desk then start thinking maybe i should runaway from remedial classes which steal my 2nd breakhour so that i could spend my time leha leha makan makan gosip gosip :s i do feel much regret now why i did many many many stupid things in the past like id never been in seriously study reading my notebook and stuff, was being lazy and ignorant at clavius where i know it was the only one support.

i couldnt change things right now. yes i know the fact that i couldnt snitch my teachers' score list then change my score into 8 or 9 and i couldnt snap to my teachers house doing something embarassing like kidnap her/his kids then threaten my teacher(s) to add my score grades without taking any remedial classes or i will eat those kids soon hahaha. i wish i could. but just, i realise i will never do such a scurvy thing like that. its scrooge.

this silly brainy will burst easily everytime i feel all in. i mean, it doesnt work as i want to do and has planned like my mind,heart,and mouth dont cooperate well. but i cant lie im always trying to be enthusiastic and cheerful on any kind of situation. it works sometimes. change mood easily. i should look for any stress therapy to get over these boring days. i need holidays and more weekends i need refreshing i want refreshing i really want relaxation times. i do need it hurry ! or i will commit suicide in two minutes hehe no i was joking. i wont suicide for something stupid like this.

the last thing on my mind now is TO GRAB MY BIOLOGY TEXTBOOK AND STUDYYYY FOR THE HELLISH EXAMINATION TOMORROW. errg im getting queasy of asking my friends "what test(s) do we have this week?" and "when it will over?" i dont like science subjects and teachers of course but i dont even know why im in my mega-supeeeeer-dupeeeer-booooooringgg-science-class. i hate to admit that im okay now, but i should get up earlier and be more concern about my life.

have a nice weekend everyone, i love you all <3

Saykoji dan Syekh Puji

jadi ceritanya hari ini gw tes masuk uni di kelapa gading. berangkat pagi2 uda kayak mau kuar kota. secara rumah gw jauuuuuuuh aje di serpong ke jakarta utara gitu jadi harus dr pagi. di mobil buat menghilangkan kebeteean,gw dengerin nyokap gw ngoceh ini itu.

nyokap : "eh gan, kmrn si amir bego bgt deh."
fyi, amir itu karyawan nyokap gw yg kurus selidi.
bokap : "hmm.."
nyokap : "kmrn si amir bilang saykoji nikahin anak dibawah umur.HAHAHA" (mulai heboh sendiri)
bokap : "hmm.."
nyokap : "saya jadi bingung, saya kira saykoji rapper itu. tapi pas saya tanya saykoji rapper bukan, kata dya saykoji yg dy mksd tuh kyai."
bokap : "hmm.."
nyokap : "ternyata pas saya ntn infotainment silet, yg dy mksd tuh syekh puji! jauh banget ya gan.HAHAHAHAHA"(tambah heboh)
bokap : "hmm.." (smbl nguap2 ngantuk.)


ngmg2, gan yg nyokap gw maksud tuh bukan juragan yg biasa dipake sama anak2 kaskus loh. tapi gan karna nama bokap gw gandi. hahaha soalnya si andiberuang perna nanya gw :"nyokap lu ngaskus ya? kok pake gan gan gitu sih?" HAHAHAH GOBLOK ABIS NYOKAP GW NYALAIN LAPTOP AJA GA BISA APALAGI NGASKUS!. ZZZ

belakangan ini hasrat masuk sekolah gw jadi sangat2 berkurang drastis ni. yah biasanya jg ngga berhasrat juga sih. ini disebabkan dan dikarenakan oleh WAYAN ANGELS DAN BOSNYA SI WAYAN TENTUNYA. jadi gw punya 3 guru cewe yg sumpa killer najis amit amit cuihpreeeeeet , namanya destri ,lena dan ros. ketiga2nya ini gw namain wayan angels. dan bosnya tentu aja si wayan, karna gw juga ga suka sama ni orang. wayan angels and the boss inilah yg menghambat keinginan gw buat belajar bener2. sebel ih.

aduh gw jadi jijik ngebayangin si wayan ngmg "GOOD MORNING ANGELS!"
trus wayan angels jawab dgn centil "GOOD MORNING TOO YAN" iyaksss.
yauda ahh muak abis nih haahhaha goodnite smua have a nice weekend i love you all <3>

thank God this is november :D

there're lot of things have changed and i feel much much better. i dont believe in which way i took, turns out to be soooo good right now. i was mess-up,yeaa completely, that i dont care about the karma is going to pay back to person-who-makes-me-this-disappointed soon. never wished badly, i was trying to move with crying over over and over again. until i didnt care about my mudlle heart, school, life, though. and finally realize i did wrong, how can a person let ruined my whole-life? shattered my mind emotionally? ERGGGGGGG I WONT LET IT HAPPEN TWICE! as simple as that, i felt damn stupid >.< while people around me always cheer me up and always been there for me everywhere. then i promised to myself i wont be mushy sloppy tatty person anymore. never let tears stream down for any stupid person/reason.

see, things are going. i feel more than pleasantly happy now. the only reasons i do keep smiling is for those guys who never let me down, and one thing i trust there are goodkarma(s) come to me soon. i dont and will never pray for badkarma(s) to that-one. but i know God is still alive and He pays back for every little thing we did in the past. to be frank, i dont even care about anything related to. dont be a fool nomore for still in fucking loom of personwholeftyoubrokenhearted.

so, for everyone out there who's still hurted a lot because of something happened in the past and you cant move on through, just simply follow my turns. someday you will laugh out loud at this hard time. DONT LET ANYONE BRING YOU DOWN! BECAUSE HE/SHE DOESNT DESERVE IT :P i love you all <3>