this is Soul Waver (Malika Ayane) with italian language version. ntah kenapa kalo denger ini, hati jadi damai banget. happy wednesday everyone :)

there will always be

a "lie" in believe,
"over" in lover,
"end" in friends,
"us" in trust,

and "if" in life.

pernahkah kau perhatikan dirimu?
apa yang ada di balik bola matamu?
yang terselip di balik lekuk hatimu
di dalam hati nuranimu

mungkinkah kau akui bahwa dirimu itu hanyalah seorang PE NGE CUT.
sepotong jiwa yang penuh dengan bualan dan kesombongan
hanya sebongkah jiwa TER SIK SA.
apakah engkau pembenci?
apakah engkau pencinta?
apakah kau cukup baik untuk mendapat sedikit celah di hidup ini?

mungkinkah kau akui bahwa dirimu itu seorang anak manja yang mengaku dirinya pemberontak
tahukah bahwa dirimu itu hanya seorang pecandu dan tak layak untuk sepotong cinta yg suci
pernahkah kau malu pada dirimu itu?
hingga kau ingin lari dan ingin bersembunyi?

apakah engkau pencinta?
apakah engkau pembenci?
apakah kau cukup baik untuk mendapat sedikit celah di hidup ini?
apakah engkau pencinta?
apakah engkau pembenci?
apakah kau cukup baik untuk mendapat sedikit celah di hidup ini?

emang bener kata orang, kalo kita bisa terbunuh cuma dengan kata-kata. GREAT JOB ANDA!

i wish i were 3.

coz all of the stars are fading away, just try not to worry, you'll see them someday.

Everyone gets knocked down, the question is: Will you get back up?

May 2009, it was the most embarassing yet worst part of my life. emphatically, it was the worst time in my entire life so far. I was angry, disappointed, scared, and I was grieving over something repentantly. I was dooooown, was feeling blue for a month. that heart-breaking was waaaay more painful than broke up with any other guy in this earth. I cant explain what was the problem about.

I mean, it wasnt about love, family or friends. but it was about a little tiny mistake I did in the past, and someone I know, someone I put a lot of respect on, was doing something bad that almost put me in a disgraceful feeling forever.

everyone has moments like this, don't give up is the first thing. I know that's sometimes easier said then done. everything happens for a reason, and everything always work's itself out. we are given hurdles in life to see if we can jump over and overcome these hurdles. sometimes it takes longer then others, and sometimes it seems as if it will never get better. BUT it always gets worse before it gets better, but I know it will get better. we are the one who responsible for our happiness. so Remember, life will knock us down but we can choose to stand back up.

I don't care how poor a man is; if he has family, he's rich. ~Dan Wilcox and Thad Mumford,

The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck

being with you makes me feel like for once in my life I don't have to work on being happy,
it just happens.

crying out loud bgt nonton video ini :(